I kept living.
I have been a supporter of To Write Love on Her Arms since I was 16 or 17? I am 27 now. Basically since I was a teenager listening to Punk Rock music. I saw Haley Williams of my favorite band Paramore wearing their shirt and I wanted to know what it meant.
When I found out that it was an organization that helped people like me, I started supporting it. People like me who feel alone, people like me who thought about taking their own life, people like me who have depression. At that time, I had no idea that there were other people who felt the same way as me.
During that time in my life, I knew I was sad. I knew that I was depressed, but I was in denial about it. I didn’t understand how I felt so unhappy about my life and the people around me felt so… happy. I had lots of family and friends around me, but I felt so alone because no one knew how I felt.
When I found out about TWLOHA, that is how I knew that I wasn’t alone. I wasn’t alone in how I felt. There were other people out in the world who knew exactly how I felt.
I wanted to help. I still want to help.
One day I wanted to search “depression” on tumblr to see what others say about it. I cried the entire night reading about other people’s stories and how they felt. I wanted to tell to them so badly that they are not alone and that I felt the same way too.
#IKeptLiving because I realized that I’m not alone when it comes to depression and I want to help others who feel the same way I do @TWLOHA
I kept living. I talked about suicide on this blog : Attempts at suicide & I DIDn’t KILL MYSELF.
But I kept living….
There are probably a hundred reasons why I stayed alive. But most of all, I stayed alive because I know there are so many people who feel alone like I do, who feels like their world is hitting rock bottom and who feel like they won’t feel better.
They are not alone. You are not alone.
So I kept living… to make sure that anyone that feels depressed and alone, know they are not alone.
We can get through this together.
-Mel
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